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I miss you Mommy 

Dami ko gusto ikwento while nakahiga tayo sa bed nyo on a Sunday morning pagkagising ko tapos gusto ko pa rin mag in-in.

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Muntik ko na i-post without a title, but I realized wala pa rin ako maisip for it, so yaan ko na lang na ganto

I’m surprised – no delighted that we’ve kept the house somewhat in order despite being out of helper for 2 weeks (3, after coming back to this draft a week later).

I’m proud of our partnership. While I miss having a house help, mas gusto ko sana to not need it anymore. Ang sarap ng walang pinapasweldo lol.

But we both work full time and we don’t have a village to rely on to.

Fortunately, mas madali na talaga alagaan si Nklai. Medyo sumusunod na.

But because we need to spend more time with chores, that means less time for hobbies. Nama-maintain ko naman Duolingo streak ko, but haven’t painted for a while now. Kahit targeted ako ng mga ads for weekend workshop and things.

But still, I somehow found time to see a movie (from online streaming and putol putol din na nood), and now about to finish a book (done na kasi na-pending nga 'tong post na 'to). Buti na lang Arjen lives nearby – na break yung “usuals” ko. He lent me his book, and he came over at nag movie night kami.

2026 still feels brand new, doesn’t it? But 2^nd quarter is fast approaching!! Scorching summer heat and electricity bill skyrocketing soon. Everything is expensive with what’s happening in the middle east. Kung maaari, wag nyo na kami idamay please.

Lapit na rin mag anniv sa work, but I still feel like I don’t belong, nor deserve the spot I got. Nasa to-do list ko ang mag update ng CV, but here I am, in front of the laptop, not doing that.

Photo dump!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

He's so good at building things; connecting toys, even the ones which are not from the same set

 

Arjen asked kung record-breaking bilis finish ko daw ba 'to. Maybe, as a chismosa, but honestly, the book is meh for me - kaya siguro mabilis ko din nabasa.

Quality time with apos - missing kuya Marcus and kuya Jaden; balot na balot pa kami pero 2 days after this was taken, napaka jinet na ulet sa Pinas

So tender! Brine is the key! Though I'm still craving for Yabu's unli cabbage, that's somehow better than the local ones

Decades-long friendship with our little ones - pero nag tantrums na si Nklai kaya ayaw sumama sa pic

 

Thank You Pilot

I have 268 other things going inside my head. I thought of writing to relax a little bit, but the sight of Microsoft 365 apps did just the opposite of that.
But here I am powering through on Word.

1. I want to find a nice pressed powder because mine just shattered. I thought I was already winning when I noticed that I had pan-ned it. I wonder if refill is available.

~~ proceeds to open Google to find out ---it’s not.

2.     And then I started obsessing over the flat warts spreading on the side of my face. I sighed. Nklai asked “wuht rongg?” I told him about it and that I need to see a doctor. He replied “maybe go to hot-tee-tal”. ♥ I’ll set up an appointment for another day.

3.     I want to plan our May trip and have saved some attractions here and there; but April will come sooner and I don’t really have anything yet. And hearing Arjen’s story about the bumper-to-bumper traffic they got stuck on when they last went home to Quezon on a Maundy Thursday, I’m seriously considering just staying in the city.

4.     I made a super-duper ugly beach scenery watercolor painting. Watercolor is so hard to control; so I went back to just one subject and followed a YouTube tutorial of a tree. I wish had the budget and time for proper lessons.

5. I finally did it. I switched pens -- and used the Sarasa that Mina got me for Christmas. I will probably use my green Pilot pen ‘til the end of its life. But moving forward, my planner has a vintage red brown ink from February onward. 

You will always have a place in my heart green Pilot pen

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Random morning trigger kasi may napanood akong Reel of Internet strangers - 3 friends na naga-update sa friend nila who passed away 21 years ago.

Nung kabataan ko, for some reason may nabasa akong isang text/DM ni ate kay Mommy; I forgot what it was about but she shared her worry about something. 

Na-realize ko na I kept things from Mommy ‘coz I felt like I had to protect her from feeling worried or any other negative feeling dahil sa heart condition nya. But that moment I realized I wanted to have a more open relationship with her and just tell her everything. 

And now yun lang yine-yearn ko. Have adult conversation with Mommy. Hearing her wisdom and feeling the comfort of sharing everyday life update with Mommy.

2026

Approaching the final year of my 30s. 

clouds + roses

Interesting conversation.

Meaningful connection.  

Sabi ko yun muna mga mini goals ko.

Mag-improve yung painting ko ng clouds & roses kasi nakaka asar yung mga last kong gawa, pero it’s Feb pero tamad na tamad pa rin ako mag set up. Daydreaming of a quiet little studio para hindi na kailangan mag set up + ligpit.  

So far, sunflower and jellyfish pa lang finished work ko.

Yesterday nag “weekend watercolor” kami ni Nikolai coz hindi ako tumuloy dun sa gusto kong workshop. 

Interesting conversation x meaningful connection - na medyo mahirap dahil busy during work hours and parang ayaw ko na lol. 

Especially disappointing when people don’t show up. 

I’ll try harder if opportunity presents itself. 

Pero tipong kahit kami ni Ali, pag nagwwalking walking, wala akong ma-contribute sa usapan.

Anyway, also other mini goal - iwas complain / rant. 

I don’t have a plan on how to achieve. 

Kthxbye.

stories about the apo you loved before you met

Nasa “Look!” phase na kami. When little children like to show and tell - just about everything. 

Imagining what it’s like kung nandito si Mommy, and she would shower Nikolai with attention and praises, kahit mga simpleng bagay lang ipakita. 

Haay 

Manifesting Walkable Philippines

Walkable community

Parks

Trains

Parking lots (it’s a me problem)

 

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Iinis na naman ako at di ko ma control reaction ko!

Ang hirap maging dysregulated na nanay reactive ko. Ang hirap iasa sa helper, kaso parang ako lang nagmmultitask?! 

Haay unang rant

Many more to come

ps. Bakit may AI kineme na tong Blogger

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