クラゲ

Random morning trigger kasi may napanood akong Reel of Internet strangers - 3 friends na naga-update sa friend nila who passed away 21 years ago.

Nung kabataan ko, for some reason may nabasa akong isang text/DM ni ate kay Mommy; I forgot what it was about but she shared her worry about something. 

Na-realize ko na I kept things from Mommy ‘coz I felt like I had to protect her from feeling worried or any other negative feeling dahil sa heart condition nya. But that moment I realized I wanted to have a more open relationship with her and just tell her everything. 

And now yun lang yine-yearn ko. Have adult conversation with Mommy. Hearing her wisdom and feeling the comfort of sharing everyday life update with Mommy.

2026

Approaching the final year of my 30s. 

clouds + roses

Interesting conversation.

Meaningful connection.  

Sabi ko yun muna mga mini goals ko.

Mag-improve yung painting ko ng clouds & roses kasi nakaka asar yung mga last kong gawa, pero it’s Feb pero tamad na tamad pa rin ako mag set up. Daydreaming of a quiet little studio para hindi na kailangan mag set up + ligpit.  

So far, sunflower and jellyfish pa lang finished work ko.

Yesterday nag “weekend watercolor” kami ni Nikolai coz hindi ako tumuloy dun sa gusto kong workshop. 

Interesting conversation x meaningful connection - na medyo mahirap dahil busy during work hours and parang ayaw ko na lol. 

Especially disappointing when people don’t show up. 

I’ll try harder if opportunity presents itself. 

Pero tipong kahit kami ni Ali, pag nagwwalking walking, wala akong ma-contribute sa usapan.

Anyway, also other mini goal - iwas complain / rant. 

I don’t have a plan on how to achieve. 

Kthxbye.