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Sobrang aliwalas ng langit kahapon parang gusto kong ilapat mga plano ko sa buhay. Eh kaso biglang umulan today. Oh well. 

I'd like to congratulate myself by finishing 2 books so far. I set an alarm for our Book Club's meeting, but I was still so sleepy, nag snooze na lang til it was time for my morning shift. May be next quarter.

Iba pa rin talaga ang dating sakin ng physical book vs eBook. I have some eBooks na naka stash sa Aldiko, Google Drive, and sa email but mas inviting ang physical copy ng book. 

I would also like to thqnk one of my forever boyfriends, Arjen for encouraging and inspiring me to do these stuff again -- be more physically active and to read books. 

He always sundo & hatid me pag mag briskwalk and badminton kami. Forced me to do yoga; lent me my 1st 2021 book. I tried to influence him to watch animé, pero Attack on Titan is tad bit morbid for his liking.

Anyway, I will TRY to write a book review on the ones I've read. There's a great chance na walang substance yung review, but again, focus on the word TRY. 

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So diba sabi ko itutuloy ko yung reflection and intention..

pero hindi ko naman ginawa 

Kaya eto random thought vomit and yet again walang kwentang post

Intentions for the year --

1. Enrich my connections 

Di ko rin talaga sure how dahil obviously pandemic pa rin. Pero gusto ko sana is stronger bond with my loved ones. 

Sobrang matampuhin ko pa man din. Pag di mo ko kinamusta parang gusto ko ekis ka na sakin. Pero sige, ako na lang mag reach out. 

2. Self-care - so sana mapanindigan ko, mga mini activities ko, walk/run, yoga & stretching, skincare, PROPER POSTURE!!!, read, paint, write. Anything lang to keep me from mindless scrolling sa Social Media at manood ng mga kung anu-anong videos that doesn't add value to my life

Yun siguro summary, every time na parang walang kwentang entertainment ang gagawin ko, pause and ask myself "Does this add value to your life?". Ang iksi kasi ng buhay.

Kaya nine-next ko na rin yung kanta sa Spotify pag di ko syado bet. 

Speaking of Spotify. Ang intense ng algorithm. Napa "add to Liked Songs" ako sa mga nasa Discover Weekly ko. 

ps. super ganda ng So, Soo Pretty by LANY. Hindi naman ako snob pero lampake ako sa kanila kahit nung kausuhan nila dito at 3x a year sila kung mag concert sa Pinas. Pero nung napakinggan ko to, so kilig ♥

Kahit hindi pa rin ako marunong mag Kalimba, napahanap ako ng tabs. Pero wala. Ano ba Internet of 2021. Meron pa rin palang mga bagay na di nassearch online. 

Sabi ko nga pala ippost ko yung Spotify Lookback keme ko for 2020. Inscreenshot ko pa pero ayun, tambak muna sila. Next time na lang.

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“And how are you crazy?”

I am on the verge of trimming my bangs and certainly it will be a disaster. I need a distraction, just anything - and so I sit and write.

For the love month, I encourage all my friends to watch Alain de Botton's talk in Google even in London in 2017 - Why You Will Marry the Wrong Person. 

It's been 2 days that I have been obsessing with it; had boss watch it with me again this morning.

And though I want to highlight all my favorite parts, it would just look like someone spilled the ink of the highlighter - yes I adore all parts of the talk, most were painstakingly accurate. But this maybe the point I relate to the most --

One of the reasons why love is so tricky for us because it requires us to do something we really don't want to do which is to approach another human being and say "I need you, I wouldn't really survive without you, I'm vulnerable before you"

..and there's a very strong impulse in all of us to be strong and to be well-defended and not to reveal our vulnerability

...whenever there's a danger of needing to be extremely vulnerable and exposed to another person ..the first response is to get "anxiously attached"..

 When you are anxiously attached to somebody rather than saying "I need you", you start to get very procedural .. you start to get strict when actually what you want to do is to ask a very poignant question "Do you still care about me?"

Why do I feel attacked?! LOL 

I kind of want to delve into this talk deeper; maybe do some self-reflection. I also kinda want to read his books but maybe another time. 

Speaking of books, I wish to finish this James Patterson I'm reading now. There are so many cheesy parts/cliché-ish; it's making me wonder if his books had always been that way. And now I'm trying to recall which ones I've read before. Have I ever though?!  

Anyway, I want to finish this one because I ordered a memoir and hope to finish that one as well before our company's virtual book club Bluejeans meeting. Yes, aside from Zoom, MS Teams, WebEx, there's yet another videoconferencing app called BlueJeans. 

Over the past few weeks, I have managed to enjoy new normal a bit -- "eat out" (technically eat at the MAAX parking lot) with Team Gastritis, come home to GMA to visit Mommy, Daddy, & Tisoypie, and meet Simeon Fam, have dinner slash slightly awkward reunion with college friends, meet with highschool barkada (though for unfortunate circumstance), feel like a winner in purchasing affordable lemons, satisfy my cravings of padthai and ramen, and pickup "Plakpook" in Taguig [dear self, change this later].

2021 has been relatively good, it terrifies me a bit. 

Photo dump coming right up -

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