Thank You Pilot

I have 268 other things going inside my head. I thought of writing to relax a little bit, but the sight of Microsoft 365 apps did just the opposite of that.
But here I am powering through on Word.

1. I want to find a nice pressed powder because mine just shattered. I thought I was already winning when I noticed that I had pan-ned it. I wonder if refill is available.

~~ proceeds to open Google to find out ---it’s not.

2.     And then I started obsessing over the flat warts spreading on the side of my face. I sighed. Nklai asked “wuht rongg?” I told him about it and that I need to see a doctor. He replied “maybe go to hot-tee-tal”. ♥ I’ll set up an appointment for another day.

3.     I want to plan our May trip and have saved some attractions here and there; but April will come sooner and I don’t really have anything yet. And hearing Arjen’s story about the bumper-to-bumper traffic they got stuck on when they last went home to Quezon on a Maundy Thursday, I’m seriously considering just staying in the city.

4.     I made a super-duper ugly beach scenery watercolor painting. Watercolor is so hard to control; so I went back to just one subject and followed a YouTube tutorial of a tree. I wish had the budget and time for proper lessons.

5. I finally did it. I switched pens -- and used the Sarasa that Mina got me for Christmas. I will probably use my green Pilot pen ‘til the end of its life. But moving forward, my planner has a vintage red brown ink from February onward. 

You will always have a place in my heart green Pilot pen

クラゲ

Random morning trigger kasi may napanood akong Reel of Internet strangers - 3 friends na naga-update sa friend nila who passed away 21 years ago.

Nung kabataan ko, for some reason may nabasa akong isang text/DM ni ate kay Mommy; I forgot what it was about but she shared her worry about something. 

Na-realize ko na I kept things from Mommy ‘coz I felt like I had to protect her from feeling worried or any other negative feeling dahil sa heart condition nya. But that moment I realized I wanted to have a more open relationship with her and just tell her everything. 

And now yun lang yine-yearn ko. Have adult conversation with Mommy. Hearing her wisdom and feeling the comfort of sharing everyday life update with Mommy.

2026

Approaching the final year of my 30s. 

clouds + roses

Interesting conversation.

Meaningful connection.  

Sabi ko yun muna mga mini goals ko.

Mag-improve yung painting ko ng clouds & roses kasi nakaka asar yung mga last kong gawa, pero it’s Feb pero tamad na tamad pa rin ako mag set up. Daydreaming of a quiet little studio para hindi na kailangan mag set up + ligpit.  

So far, sunflower and jellyfish pa lang finished work ko.

Yesterday nag “weekend watercolor” kami ni Nikolai coz hindi ako tumuloy dun sa gusto kong workshop. 

Interesting conversation x meaningful connection - na medyo mahirap dahil busy during work hours and parang ayaw ko na lol. 

Especially disappointing when people don’t show up. 

I’ll try harder if opportunity presents itself. 

Pero tipong kahit kami ni Ali, pag nagwwalking walking, wala akong ma-contribute sa usapan.

Anyway, also other mini goal - iwas complain / rant. 

I don’t have a plan on how to achieve. 

Kthxbye.