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I got laid off.

Next week unemployed na ko.

I feel lost.

And yes, tinuloy pa rin naming JP trip. Dream destination na pampasaya and pang distract habang puro meetings and busy chatroom regarding separation.

Nagigisng in the middle of the night with kabog sa dibdib, terrified na I might not find a well-paying remote job - with my lack of skill na kaya sustain bills and lifestyle namin.

I need to upskill, or explore new career? 

I need to practice presenting myself in an interview na sobrang hirap gawin after confidence crashed sa last role.

Yun lang.

Tapos sa SocMed syempre puro vanity pa rin ipopost ko and curated post ng happy Japan trip.

Pero masaya naman talaga. 

Dream come true.

Pero behind it all, eto same old riddled with anxiety self pa rin. 

End of an Era

Yun na yon. End of 14 year journey. 

I’m still processing it, at the same time distracting myself with other things - our upcoming trip, and applying here and there. 

Where and how do I even begin again? 

Spoke Too Soon

And now I’m lost

So eto pala ang actual end of an era.  

Totoo bang future will be okay? Can I take your word for it?