Sunday Woe of a Skincare Junkie

I’ve made peace with the fact that my face will never be makinis. I’m fully aware that it’s ridiculous to compare it to the artistas, even more those kPop idols.

June 2019. I was hopeful at the outset of my skincare journey. The more I read and watch, the more confident I’ve become that I can do this without going through the horrible peeling other people go through when undergoing treatment at the Dermas. I have to say, I do see some improvement, particularly on my forehead area.

My enlarged pores will be with me forever; it’s genetics. And as I age I’ll see some spots here and there.

Pimples, yes, that’s kind if a given, especially when I’m close to my period.

But my, oh my, hormonal acne has reached another milestone: 5-in-1 cystic acne. My only savior for this stubborn kind is getting cortisone injection. But at a time of pandemic, that’s not really an ideal move.

So I’m stuck with this gigantic morph of cystic acne for the next few days. Debating whether I salicylic acid or Benzoyl peroxide the shit out of it, orrrrr try to calm it with niacinamide and hope for the best.

something infiniteLy interesting

The never ending pathless journey in search for a magical compass

I thought maybe kung balikan ko mga old posts ko I’d find a good direction as to where I want to go. But then puro mga pangarap na di natutupad ang mga nakikita ko.

Like my caption on Instagram “here’s one advice I obviously don’t follow”. Why don’t I? I don’t understand why I keep on straying away from the things I once hoped for no matter how simple they may be. Also I noticed that I don’t dream big enough. Masyado akong madaming apprehension and excuses. I got these debates in my head that when I get tired of finding a fault I sort of just crash.  Now maybe I can just move on sa mga ginusto ko nung nakaraan and work on achieving my current goals. I don’t know, just thinking out 

loud.

So is it stupid to ask why I am like this? In my effort to better understand myself, I searched for a personality (Temperament really) test and got this for an answer. Ang nabasa ko lang, I’m part of the meek and boring type. LOL jk. Sorry fellow “Guardians”.

It didn’t really help taking this test.

Who dictates the measure of success of a person? Would you agree with me if I say it’s rather subjective? Dami na naman sanga ng thoughts ko. Where am I going with this? I don’t know.

 

 Look how many times I was uncertain just by reading this stupid post! Ugh sarap tadyakan sarili! 

I need help.