Unfiltered Now, Cringe Later

Gusto ko ba talaga to? Oversharing sa blog pero ire-retract din naman..eventually.
Also sana uso na lang getting therapy dito no? 
Para 'di na ko nagpprocess ng thoughts ko online for my 2 readers and my future self to consume.

Anyway, inumpisahan ko na lang rin let me just kwento about my na-unsyameng birthday trip.

Lagi namin dndrawing ang Quezon Province trip, pero 'di matuloy tuloy. And nitong Holy Week, nagyaya na ulit si Arjen but sobrang panget ng schedule namin ni Alidogz, I just don't want to pitas so much leave credits para lang makasama, so we didn't.
I also feel like (warning topic for therapy incoming) - I feel I've been too available for friends na yung mga trip lang nila ang ginagawa namin; of course I kinda like them too, otherwise di ako sasama. But it makes me question na, okay how 'bout the things that I want?! (insert tantrums here)

I haven't really focused on that - what I want. I don't know why, but it's as if craving ako sa connection kaya yung "companion" ang appeal sakin of doing stuff with friends, secondary na lang yung actual activity. Does that make sense? I don't want to discredit naman the things some of my friends do, may mga nabubudol pa rin naman ako na samahan ako sa mga ganaps

but minsan lang I feel it's not the same as the effort I extend. Thats not really my friends issue, but boundaries issue ko sa sarili ko. 

So I asked myself, ano ba trip ko? Travel obviously; to be realistic, a "weekend" getaway will do but must have beach + sunset (+ food syempre takaw e). 

I booked a nice * estetik * hostel in La Union for 2 nights for just the 3 of us. 
I invited friends but since Mon-Wed yung dates ng trip namin, of course walang papatos. Some are also recovering from recent magastos trips and I don't think they even considered joining kahit ano pa invite ko.

Unfortunately Ali had a minor medical emergency a week before our trip. He's okay now though.
Our booking however, was non-refundable!
Gahd it's so upsetting just to write about it. Pwede pa rin naman talaga kami tumuloy, but malayong drive and mahihirapan lang ako with Nikolai kasi injured si Ali, and the meds, and other stuff - I ultimately decided to cancel.
Gusto ko na sana to just let it go as soon as I could (including the Php 6000 I paid in full). Ako na lang unang aayaw bago pa ko ma-turndown.
Pero tinry pa ko ipaglaban ni Donna, to no avail. I warned her baka ma-badvibes lang sya. 

The property said I understood the terms upon reservation eme eme fcknsht. But you know, for all kinds of reservation I semi expect that for medical emergency, there will always be some kind of consideration. 
They did say it's transferrable though, but we were at the hospital for how many days, 'di ko na pnrioritize maghanap ng mapaglilipatan. 
Also semi hoping na kaya na ni Ali after his treatment has kicked in since minor lang naman yung procedure (such an inconsiderate wife). 
So in order to feel less defeated, nagpa compose na lang ako kay ChatGPT ng negative review at nag 1 star - which tbh didn't really make any difference coz the hostel had stellar reviews. 

Next best thing I want - good food and tambay with coffee! 

Life changing rolls: Wabi Zabi in General Trias - treat ni k'A. It was supposed to be delivered, pero I just didn't want to spend my birthday at home kasi most likely mags-sulk lang ako sa napakainit na pugon also known as our apartment. 
And while I wanted to have coffee in Bulacan, dito na lang muna sa Hiraya for the view and better temperature vs Bacoor impyerno feels. 

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