"What kind of year has this been for you? Tell me the story of your proudest moment?"
I've been very vocal about my struggle with motherhood. It's a constant battle of trying very hard while second-guessing every step of the way.
One proud moment I immediately thought of is teaching LO maneuver to crawl. I believe all babies do things in their own timeline. But it made me proud that somehow I saw significant improvement after teaching him where to put his knees and arms etc. Same goes, when I taught him "feet first" when getting off of the matress. Those little wins are precious to me. Those were the moments I feel we're doing alright.
Technology is two-faced coin.
It helped me a lot with things we struggled with. At the same time, it's seeing how others do parenthood sparked my insecurities.
Truth is, it still makes me sad not being able to breastfeed LO.
I pumpled a little bit and still have the washi tapes of my "date/time + oz collected" labels on my wall; albeit rather few.
He was able to latch; I hope I don't forget that. But those times were very brief, as if he only suckled for comfort.
Maybe someday I will be able to finally move past this bitterness, he's turning one afterall and doing great with solids through baby-led weaning.
Surely there are other aspects of my life, but for now my world revolves around this tiny human beside me.
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