New Chapter ng Yaya Serye

Mukhang mahaba haba pa tong journey namin! 

Sana mag steady muna! 

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I honestly hope I find peace with my decision. 

But first I hope I find clarity.  

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2nd Heaven Birthday

"Handled" today better than last year, but really it just the stronger repression of sorrow.  

I will grieve properly, someday.  

I miss you Mommy

I love you forever

I want a break

  

But I can't

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Hindi naman sa ingrata ako, pero pagka bukas ko ng laptop to log in for my shift, I felt a wave of misery.

Gusto ko na mag quit, pero paano na yung pang Boracay ni bb.

Hay I feel trapped 

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Yaaay!

I think that worked for now; changing the URL threw off the bot traffic.  

I can't decide if I want to keep it this way, as the isolation feels peaceful right now.

With that feeling of security, I'll probably breathe, cry, sing in writing like my girl Anais Nin wanted me to.  

Thought vomit: 

I want to get out of the tech field, but it seems I'm stuck.

I've been in this industry for 13 years yet I still don't consider myself technical!  

And where would I go?  

And how would I contribute to our household if I start all over?  

It feels this whole "transition to HCL" conundrum is a way out for me, but I need security and assurance more than ever.  

I'm too old to be confused! Too old to not have a path.  

I feel so lost right now.  

And these negative feelings come with cravings!  

For connection - but, that's for another time.  

Speaking of cravings, I kinda want to have midnight snack even though I am already overweight!  

I have zero self control!!  🙃   

More random photos:  

Shoefie at Starbucks Reserve Westgate

Just some random old photo showcasing how much I look like my son

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Paano ba mamblock ng bot traffic

Scary naman baka malicious traffic or what. So old pa man din ng account na to, very vulnerable huhu